I haven’t written in awhile. I hurt my arm in January. At first I thought it was just a sore muscle (I had used the Wii Fit and done some tricky yoga poses). But it has turned out to be something more serious. A frozen shoulder, apparently. I have had one appointment with an osteopath and I have another scheduled later this week. She helped immensely for a couple of days about a month ago. I am very much in need of a break from the pain, so even if I only get a few days respite again, it is well worth the expense.
I kind of feel like I’ve been losing my mind. Again. Still? I don’t know if it’s just the constant physical agony, the long depressing winter that doesn’t ever seem to end here, or what. But something has got to give. I can’t continue this way. I have been very depressed. I have gained 40 pounds since this time last year, 30 of those just since Christmas. I have been feeling very vulnerable and helpless. That’s never a good thing.
So today, even as I stand up to my knees in the rubble of this chaos, I am taking hold of the reins and pointing this horse and buggy on the path to abundance and gratitude. I logged into SparkPeople. I weighed myself. I put on my Spark activity tracker. I tracked my water and breakfast (even if it was only coffee). I set new weight loss goals. I am breathing deep and going to work.